Yesterday morning I was sipping on my coffee listening to my friend tell me about how she keeps going back to this guy that hurts her over and over again. She had just told me that he recently blocked her phone number but knowing how these manipulating guys work, I asked her, "What are you going to do when he comes back into your life?" She responded as most people (including me) would saying, "I just need to be strong."
If I had a penny for every time I heard someone say that, I would be a millionaire. Those six words break my heart (and yes, I did just count how many words were in that sentence).
The next thing that came from my mouth shocked her and it was obvious by the expression on her face. I responded bluntly by saying, "But you aren't strong, you are weak." Oh boy did that take her by surprise. However, it is the honest truth that no one ever wants to deliver or receive. We think that by telling people that they are strong it will encourage them, however it does the opposite. It is an unrealistic expectation that is put upon us... it is a lie. We as humans are not strong, we are fragile and weak. We are quick to grow weary and stumble. We always fall short. We run back to toxic things even when we don't want to. I have found bondage in trying to convince myself I am strong but I have found freedom in accepting my weakness. I have said the statement "I just need to be strong" countless number of times and no matter how hard I train my mind or body or soul, it fails me.
It is only when I welcome my weakness, admit my brokenness, and pray that Christ would be my strength that I become strong.
Maybe you are going through a similar situation. You keep trying to be strong and build up enough courage to accomplish this or to fight that but can I just encourage you to lay down at the feet of Jesus. Admit that you are weak and incapable. Trust Jesus when He says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." (2 Corinthians 12:9)
I was in a similar situation that my friend was in with multiple guys and even my own dad. I had ignored my dad for months because I was trying to build up the courage to call him on the phone and tell him how I felt. But I never felt ready and I never would have. It wasn't until I pressed into the Lord and spoke identity over myself as God's beloved daughter that I found strength to call my dad. When you meditate on who God is; your Comforter, Refuge, Sustainer, Peace, Rightousness, Father, Lover, Protector, etc, you are free from needing it from this world. I pray that the next time that thing or person or lie tries to pull you down, that it wont be able to because you are fulfilled and rooted in Jesus and who He is to you and what He says about you. The enemy will lie to you and try to convince you that you can be strong; don't believe that lie because you will be caught on a never ending hamster wheel trying to grasp an unattainable goal. You are weak, we are all weak...only Christ is our strength and believe me that that truth will set you free.