As humans we all are waiting for something; the next stage in life, a relationship, a career change or promotion, to finally graduate, to have your baby, to get married, to buy a house, etc. I could go on and on about the things we wait for in this lifetime.
This summer I felt the Lord impress on my heart that I was stepping into a season of intentionally waiting. I knew what I was waiting for and I understood that God had a good and beautiful purpose for that time of waiting; to sanctify me and prepare me. For a few months, in God's strength, my eyes were focused on Him. I was trusting in the Lord. He was my portion and my satisfaction. I was abiding in Him in joy. However, my attention was directed elsewhere coming back to San Diego for the beginning of a busy semester. I stopped abiding in God and trusting in His plan for me. I would have never said that but I was living in such a way that revealed my impatient heart. I wanted to take control of the situation and grab onto something/someone that would gratify this waiting heart of mine.
In the wait, if we focus our eyes on the object that were waiting for it can ruin us. Our hearts are so quick to grab on to something and worship it, especially if its tangible. But we are made to worship our Creator not the created.
While it's true that we are always waiting for something, we need to know that we have everything in Christ already. That is the beauty of the Kingdom of God; it is already but not yet. Imagine you are in a race. God is the goal and that thing you are waiting for is a stepping stone to help you get to Him. It is not the goal. When we switch those we realize once we have attained the thing we are waiting for that it doesn't satisfy. That's because it was never made to be the end goal. It was never meant to be at the finish line. Jesus is at the finish line and all these other things are meant to stir our affections for Him and to help us to keep running towards Him. And because this is a already and not yet Kingdom, Jesus is not only at the finish line, His Spirit is running the race with you right next to you. It is all about Him. Even the waiting is about Him not the thing you are waiting for. Those are gifts God gave you (or will give you) because He loves you. They were never made to be the end goal.
We are called to actively wait. Just like Mary when Gabriel the angel told her she was pregnant with the Savior of the world. That did not come to fruition right away. Jesus waited 30 years to start His ministry and even then it didn't look like what she probably would've thought it would look like when Jesus was being persecuted and hated on. But she trusted God's promise that this was the Messiah. She waited on the Lord and He renewed her strength in times where she felt discouraged because she abided in Him and kept her eyes on God. In the wait, all we are called to do is abide in Him and enjoy Him in the present. And guess what, even we don't have to do that in our strength because He gives us the power to.
"A strong woman has waited patiently while her roots grew down deep into God's word. Over time she becomes unshakeable in her faith. She starts bearing fruit naturally and is full of life. People are attracted to her strength and growth, and many find rest and peace as they lean on her. And when storms and trials come as they always do, they wont be able to take her down. A few branches may be lost or pruned away, but in their place comes new growth and new life." -Lisa Chan