"My grace is sufficient for you" (2 Corinthians 12:9).
This verse has been on my mind a lot lately. The hard question I feel the Lord repeatedly ask me is, "Do you truly believe this?" And every time my heart sinks as I answer "I believe, help me overcome my unbelief" (Mark 9:24). And when I'm feeling extra honest, I admit that my heart's desires reveal that most times I don't believe what this verse says; that He is enough.
Today in church my pastor was speaking on John 14, "Let not your hearts be troubled; believe in God..." He said that the root of our troubled hearts is unbelief. More specifically, the root of our sin is unbelief. I believe that God is loving and present and alive. But do I believe He is satisfying? No. That leads me to look to other things of this world for satisfaction and joy. Particularly in my longing for a husband. I believe the lie that once I have that, only then will my heart be complete. Only then will I be truly satisfied.
However, if I truly believed that "His grace is sufficient" then I would live out of a place of fullness and abundance. The truth is, is that He IS enough. God made us to be fully satisfied in Him. The idols that we cling to in this world, look like they will fill a hole or quench a longing in our hearts but all they do is leave us wanting more. We all have that one thing (or a whole handful of things) that we say "If only I had this... then I'd be happy (fill in the blank)." You're believing that if you had that, you would be complete and content. What if I told you, you have everything you need and more in reach?
The good news that Jesus Christ died the death we deserve, taking on all our sin and gaining us access and a relationship with our Heavenly Father, means that we are lack nothing. If you are in Christ... if you believe the good news you are; fully loved, comforted, known, desired, approved of, and taken care of by Him.
I fail at believing this almost daily; in fact, just this morning I had written in my journal "Lord I so deeply desire for that guy to reach out to me, I just need to know if he was actually interested in me or not." But then as God always does He whispers the question in my ear, "Am I enough?"
Christ is enough. We are already fully pursued and sought after by Him. So much so that He went to the great length of dying on a cross to gain us as His bride. His affection towards us is the only love that will satisfy our longing hearts.