I feel behind. Behind on being in a relationship, behind on the trends, behind on getting a job, behind on knowledge, behind on traveling, behind on getting my life together... so I hope and pray for the future me but all the meanwhile I haven't noticed the beauty I am standing in. Our culture is constantly looking to improve. We as humans are constantly trying to upgrade to make our lives be better. And don't get me wrong it is good to set goals and have dreams but it becomes unhealthy striving when you miss out on the sacred ground you are standing on.
Leanna Tankersley says it perfectly: "Usually the relief from all this hot pursuit arrives because we finally stand still long enough to let ourselves be loved." I used to look in the mirror at my body and critique/criticize every thing about it. After admitting this to my friend one day, she challenged me to change the way I talk to myself in the mirror. She challenged me to look in the mirror and say "Kailey, YOU are beautiful right now. All of you. Every last inch of you. You don't need to change a thing because I love you just how you are." That was very difficult for me to do at first but this soon became an unforced rhythm of grace in my life. Each time I said it the more I truly believed it. Each time I spoke God's truth over me I loved myself more and more.
What if we do that with our whole life? What if we hold our lives in front of the mirror and whisper the true words of sacredness and belovedness into the places where we feel behind, dull, and lacking. If you were to hold your life up in front of a mirror, where is the place that you critique/criticize and find less than beautiful? For me it was my relationship status. Maybe for you it is a shortcoming of your ideally perfect career or the standard that is hanging over you to have a perfect body or something as "little" as an overwhelming list of house chores. Whatever it is, I want you to tell that part of your life that it is loved in all its flaws, just like I did to myself in the mirror. Form an unforced rhythm of grace so that when you find a fault, you can hold it up to the mirror and speak belovedness into it.
We are never going to reach perfection as a human. Perfection is waiting for us in heaven. Therefore striving for perfection on this earth will only leave us disappointed in ourselves. We must dare to love ourselves and let ourselves be loved right now where we are, even in our shortcomings.